I love you.
I live for those words.I didn't know I was capable of loving so deep and so intense till I started loving you. I never knew what love was, I knew that it was abstract, intangible, something you feel. It was a mystery, I thought I had been in love many times because I felt something, I couldn't explain what it was but it was a thing, a feeling in the stomach, they call it butterflies. Really, really? Butterflies? Aren't those insects? I actually don't know what a butterfly is? It is a specimen, a certain creature. Before I lose my train of thought, butterflies? In my stomach? Really? Oh to be young and naive.I realised I never really knew what love was...it has always been infatuation or lust or just caring for another more than I would for the average person. I found out what love is when I met you. I realised that I was capable of loving someone deeply and truly. That I was able to let down my guard and allow myself to be vulnerable and let you in and make my heart your base camp. The first time I saw you, you grabbed ma attention, tall, dark and strong features. I had to take a moment to contain myself. Luckily for me I was leaving as you were arriving...back track where were we? You shouldn't let me stray from the topic you know... Now where was I? Love! Oh yes, I fell in love with a man. It all happened so quickly. I was scared because I didn't know what was happening to me.He invaded my space, my mind, body and my heart. He started to occupy my thoughts, uninvited he would appear, he would stay there for minutes, hours, days. I couldn't get him out, no matter how hard I tried. I asked myself could this be it? Could this really be love? Could it be possible that I, Zora Dick could be in love? I tried to fight it. I waited for him to wake me up from what seemed to be a dream. I waited for him to do something that would let me kick him out of my space. Out of my mind, body and heart, but to my surprise that never happened. Then the day came when he uttered those three words. Yes, he said it, he whispered in my ear...my heart raised, my pulse increased, my soul smiled. He loved me. He actually said it, he loves me, yes me, lil ol me. I was loved, yipppee(fireworks) I said it back I love you too and this was the first time I had said it with feeling and meant it. I felt alive, my soul was smiling. I love love. The best thing I did for myself this year was allowing myself to love, taking that leap of faith and taking the risk by allowing myself to experience something I never experienced before. I live for love, I love saying those three words because they are real. They are powerful and I respect him for loving me. Love is seeing his face, his smile, hearing his voice, that text good morning, the kiss on the forehead. Oh yes the kiss on the forehead, love is that kiss on the forehead. I found a man who kisses me on the forehead. I found love...I love love.
